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Letter to the single mom… 

Dear beautiful,

After having my daughter, I felt like I didn’t deserve God’s grace because of what I’d done. My virginity was this treasure I kept; it set me apart and made me special
now it was gone. I felt worthless and finished. 
The open shame of my secret sin and the public evidence of it proved to be burdensome. I was ultimately avoiding love because I didn’t deserve it!

I wasn’t different anymore, I wasn’t special. I assumed God was like man, I assumed I had to earn His love and that failing Him meant He didn’t love me anymore. I couldn’t be more wrong! 

This very open shame proved to be a very public blessing. This treasure I gave birth to, is a great part of the reason I sought restoration. 

Fornication is wrong, there’s no excuse for it or pardoning of it by any means. But, if you’re a screw up like me that needs grace, and you desire to be pure and to give God all that’s left of you – do it! You’re not too dirty, you’re not used up, those stretch marks and that C-section scar do not mean a thing to the lover of your soul. 

You don’t have to live your life punishing yourself. Let God restore you, let Him heal those broken places and give your life and the life of the blessing(s) you bore over to Him and watch Him give you beauty for your ashes! 

My journey to wholeness began with 100 Days of Singleness, you can order the book HERE!


Live a little, love a lot, be a blessing! 

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Desperate for you….

I began with the intention of letting you all know how frustrated I was that God just was not speaking to me. But as I prayed before I started typing – He did.

“Lord I can’t hear you and I hate this feeling because it makes me feel as if I’m… desperate for you?”

All the Holy Spirit had to say was “good”and immediately I got it.

Sometimes we take the presence and voice of God for granted and He withdraws to rekindle our fire and to bring us to a place of desperation and longing.

I had to shut up – To hear Him

I had to seek Him – To Find Him

I had to get desperate – To understand that His desire for me is far greater than mine for Him.

Check out this song I just want to hear you by Deon Kipping, I swear the man is singing my life right now!!!

Sometimes I don’t trust God though I want to. Sometimes I cannot see how in the world where I am can lead to where He told me I would be. Sometimes I have to repent for my unbelief. I get confused, scared and frustrated. I don’t know what to do or how to do it, I love those moments. They remind me just how little I have to do with what God is doing in and through me. Those moments force me to face my humanity and His deity.

All I have encountered, remind me just how much I can conquer through my creator.