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To my lover…

You awaken the depths of my soul and breathe life into my weathered existence.

Your lips press against mine and your words spill out of me. 

Your eyes lineup with mine and you change my vision of the world, of my past, of myself.

You love me so completely and with so much fervor that all my broken pieces only make sense in your presence. My heart aches for he sight of you and my soul cries out for your tender mercies. 

Even when you slay me, my lips will not relent in giving you praise. The fruit of my lips are an offering pleasing to you and this broken, tattered heart of mine is your most prized possession. 

Should another come between you and I? May it never be so.

May I never forget the caress of your forgiveness and the overshadowing of my shortcomings. 

May another never take the king of my heart from His throne, but may my body be presented to you eternally as a sacrifice and living testament of your grace. 

Give me more, love me harder, draw me closer, breathe me in until only your breath remains in me.

Let my lips speak your words.

Let my heart beat with your love.

Let my mind, think your thoughts. 

May I live everyday, with the expectation of my lover. He will never leave me, never forsake me and daily He shares pages from the 66 book love letter that tells me just how completely and unselfishly He loves me.

My beloved is mine and I am His. 

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As her heart speaks…

Words do no justice

For as her heart speaks

Her soul cries out strength

Though her flesh is weak

Though emotions overtake her

And life seems to get her down

Jesus never leaves her

He’s always to be found

His love is her heart’s song

His grace a melody loud

His love is for the weary

His wrath is for the proud

Before her heart could cling to Him

Her soul must first release

The melody of old sin and shame

When at first her heart did speak

A new song she has been given

Of redemption and true love

She sings of things she never knew

Before she had His love

Her face upon the altar, her hand stretched toward the throne

Her heart now sings of hope

Born from His grace alone.

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The other daughter…

I’m the other daughter. I’m the one that didn’t happen to be born in the cocoon of a happy marriage as my other siblings and I underwent a much more complex developmental process.

I’m the “awkward situation” we dare not discuss, subject to statements like “Oh I didn’t know he had a daughter this old”. When they said the first would be last, I didn’t think this was what they meant. I felt last, out of place, insignificant and like an inconvenience my parents should have avoided.

I was wrong.

I had based my entire sense of self worth on this ideal of my father when I was younger, so when I met him… Reality paled in comparison. I’m thinking I had watched “Annie” one too many times and expected him to fall in love with me instantly then break into a rendition of ‘tomorrow, tomorrow, I love ya tomorrow, you’re only a day away’! Unfortunately that didn’t happen, but it would have been cool wouldn’t it?

I can give you statistics and I can divulge a slew of information regarding how many of us are “the other daughter” but it wouldn’t be very helpful. We don’t need statistics to show us what we experience everyday. Numbers just don’t matter when something is hurting you, statistics can’t calculate the pain of feeling rejected.

Here’s the bright side….
You don’t need anyone to value you, for you to be valuable.

When you serve the Lord and you surrender your heart to Him, there’s a peace that overtakes you that people can’t understand. Every pain you’ve felt, begins to have a purpose. You’re not defined by your past or your pain because of His promises.

Nobody, not even your parents have the right to devalue you either by word or deed. God already esteemed you and called you blessed! You were woven in purpose and are a testament of his love for humanity, because now the pain you’ve endured has made you so strong that you love so fearlessly… You change the world around you!

I’m the other daughter, a woman of purpose power and strength. I was predestined by God to be used as an instrument of His love, to share my story and impact the lives of broken women.

I am strong.
I am healed.
I am whole.

Who are you?

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99 cent love

His love was cheap
Like a bright red sign that alluded to a great purchase only to leave you with a knockoff version of what you truly wanted
He spoke of a love that he couldn’t show
It was tender, caring and deceptive
It was a love that lent it’s kindness to a soul in need, but never rooted deep enough or long enough to spring forth new life
He gave me that 99 cent love
Just shy of a dollar and worth much less
I sought it with fervor and he dangled the misconception before me like that little black dress on the clearance rack that was just one size too small!
Stuck with the decision of leaving “good enough” behind never knowing if the perfect fit was out there
He gave that 99 cent love
Just shy of a dollar but worth much less
Good enough just wasn’t good enough for her anymore
She wanted the perfect fit.

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Harlot to Help Meet (Day 63 – 100 Days of Singleness)

And behold, a woman comes to meet him, Dressed as a harlot and cunning of heart. She is boisterous and rebellious, Her feet do not remain at home;

“Come, let us drink our fill of love until morning; Let us delight ourselves with caresses.

With her many persuasions she entices him; With her flattering lips she seduces him. Suddenly he follows her As an ox goes to the slaughter, Or as one in fetters to the discipline of a fool,

For many are the victims she has cast down, And numerous are all her slain. Her house is the way to Sheol, Descending to the chambers of death. (‭Proverbs‬ ‭7‬:‭10-11, 18, 21-22, 26-27‬ NASB)

Before the Proverbs 31 woman that we all would love to think we are, Solomon was adamant in warnings of the harlot. I do not expect many women to like this message, or most men to heed the warnings but in obedience – I will paint the picture through divine vision.

Just as the virtuous woman is a “good thing” to the man who finds her, the harlot of Proverbs 7 is the woman that can be a fool’a demise. She seduces you and entices you with lips of honey and words of soothing jasmine, her hips sway to the rhythm of your heart and you lose it. Your mind. I need my brothers to understand that they have to be selective when dating and not to fall into the plan of the enemy by pursuing wayward women. Yes, you may find comfort in her bosom, but the warmth will soon turn as hot coals when you’ve turned away from God’s wisdom to melt into her embrace.

As women, we must seek healing. We cannot continuously walk around broken, using men as a pacifier for souls that are in turmoil. Your thirst for love and acceptance will never be quenched by a man, a few men or many men. No matter how many beds you are welcomed into, you will always be alone. Your soul is lost. Tangled in those bed sheets you allowed your worth to be stripped away with that last piece of clothing. You feel that a better man is the remedy, but you cannot seek from a man what only God can offer.

“I have wiped out your transgressions like a thick cloud And your sins like a heavy mist. Return to Me, for I have redeemed you.” (‭Isaiah‬ ‭44‬:‭22‬ NASB)

My sister, God does not care about your body count. He is not concerned with the labels the world has attached to you based on decisions you made from pain. He is the God that heals, that delivers and transforms. It is He that can bring you from the Proverbs 7 warning, to the Proverbs 31 blessing you were born to be.

– Shakeisha M.

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So you think you’re the one?! (Day 37 – 100 Days of Singleness)

Most people LOVE the chase… A person will pursue you to the ends of the earth just for the thrill of the chase.

We have to be careful not to mistake persistence with destiny. Not everyone that desires you, deserves you.

A man that isn’t led by God should not be expected to lead you. A mate that serves God should be one thing you do not compromise on.
There will be LOTS of potential spouses that claim to be sent by God… Lots. God will give you the spirit of discernment and for the most part you can rely on your intuition.

God will not send a spouse that pulls you away from Him.

The problem is most people want a spouse that’s godly enough to be faithful to them but not godly enough to be faithful to God by remaining pure.

So. They think they’re the one huh? Pull back and observe until God gives you confirmation, you’ll be surprised at what the Spirit shows you about a seemingly great potential spouse.

Keep seeking God, let whoever is trying to get to you… Go through Him!

Love a little. Love a lot. Be a blessing!
– Shakeisha M.

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No more locked doors!!! – Pursuing Purity (Day 26 – 100 Days of Singleness)

I know he/ she is no good for me but…

Stop right there! Anything that follows this phrase is a sorry excuse of a reason to stay and you know it.

I know as the song says, “he ain’t no good but it feels so good”. I know and have experienced the pleasure of sin, so for all of us that have; let’s take a look at this:
Flee immorality. Every other sin that a man commits is outside the body, but the immoral man sins against his own body. Or do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God, and that you are not your own? For you have been bought with a price: therefore glorify God in your body. (1 Corinthians 6:18-20 NASB)

This is the first we have addressed sexual immorality, only because establishing relationship with God was paramount and of utmost importance. A part of committing to God is relinquishing our former ways that are displeasing to our savior.

We are connected to those we allow into our bodies, it’s more than a physical exchange of pleasure … It’s a spiritual fusing of spirits that was designated for marriage. We have to commit to purity, to living up to the standard of Christ. It doesn’t matter if you’ve had 1 or 1,000 partners! All that matters is repentance and seeking God’s deliverance from the sin itself and from those our souls are tied to! Sexual sins go against God and our own bodies and no matter how the media may portray it as some frivolous act, it’s not! It’s not to be taken lightly and we aren’t to be taking part in it outside of marriage.

Or do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God, and that you are not your own?

Do you not know???

We cannot give our spirit to God and our bodies to the world. It won’t work.

We declare release from immorality! We come against the lust of this flesh and heed to the spirit of God and we WILL answer God’s call to holiness and be sustained by His Holy Spirit. We declare freedom! We declare holiness! In the name of Jesus!!!

God be with you always my loves and until next time;

Live a little, love a lot & be a blessing
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Truth About Me Conference

Truth About Me Conference

I planned and hosted my first conference this past Friday (Feb 21st 2014) and this one of the photos capturing the event.