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Life and death…

The beauty of death is silence

Every version of her, now deceased eulogizes the remnant that remains

The beauty of death is silence

The slow fading of a heartbeat, slower, softer, weaker, gone.

The beauty of death is silence.

For when we have died, crucifying the past and resurrecting the truth of who we are – life begins.

Wanting, hoping, stronger, faster.

The beauty of life is sound, to hear and be heard. To love and be loved. To understand and be understood.

Death is for those who are done. She was.

I’m not.

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Don’t call him my stepdad….

Many complications have risen from me saying “my daddy” and having to specify… But I could never get behind calling the man who raised me and loved me and sacrificed for me – my stepdad. 

Yes, some say a step dad steps in but mine didn’t. He came running to my rescue, running to love me and to bring me flinstones vitamins and McDonald’s. He came running to stick around for me when things got rough. He came running to be my hero, before I ever recognized him as such. He came running when I was in trouble and my mother was ready to shut things down. He came running because I was his princess, to him – I’m too smart to make mistakes. In his eyes I’m too good of a girl to do anything wrong.:. And though his perception is one I have seldom lived up to, I now see how valuable he is. 

He loved me so well, nobody ever questioned whether he was my real dad. He loves me, to this day with everything he has and I never feel like my thank you is enough. I don’t feel like my “I love you daddy” adequately states what my soul really means when I say it.

Thank you for accepting me.

Thank you for choosing to love me.

Thank you for making sacrifices for me, those I know about and those I don’t. 

Thanks for being there whether I had a lizard that scared me or a little girl growing in my belly that did. 

Thank you; not for stepping in but for running to my rescue. 

Thank you for being my hero.

I love you daddy! 

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To my lover…

You awaken the depths of my soul and breathe life into my weathered existence.

Your lips press against mine and your words spill out of me. 

Your eyes lineup with mine and you change my vision of the world, of my past, of myself.

You love me so completely and with so much fervor that all my broken pieces only make sense in your presence. My heart aches for he sight of you and my soul cries out for your tender mercies. 

Even when you slay me, my lips will not relent in giving you praise. The fruit of my lips are an offering pleasing to you and this broken, tattered heart of mine is your most prized possession. 

Should another come between you and I? May it never be so.

May I never forget the caress of your forgiveness and the overshadowing of my shortcomings. 

May another never take the king of my heart from His throne, but may my body be presented to you eternally as a sacrifice and living testament of your grace. 

Give me more, love me harder, draw me closer, breathe me in until only your breath remains in me.

Let my lips speak your words.

Let my heart beat with your love.

Let my mind, think your thoughts. 

May I live everyday, with the expectation of my lover. He will never leave me, never forsake me and daily He shares pages from the 66 book love letter that tells me just how completely and unselfishly He loves me.

My beloved is mine and I am His. 

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I can’t take all the pressure…

I’m so afraid to fall. Sometimes I get petrified at the very thought of dropping the ball, of not being what I’m expected to be. After all, I’m responsible for those that look at me as a representation of Christ right? I think Pressure by Jonathan McReynolds hit the nail om the head for me – I’ve been listening all morning.

Lord I need you to relieve the pressure, not just from me but for every person that is earnestly seeking to please you. Help us not to allow the voice of others to dictate who we should be. Help us not to believe the lie that there is just one way to follow you. Help us to be who we are, help us to please you by being us and not a cookie-cutter replica of a good Christian.

I don’t know when it happened, I don’t know how but somehow I lost sight of the fact that it is you alone that I aim to please. Everyday I am constantly reminded of the expectations that I may not always live up to, of the way I should look or act to be accepted. Help me to remember that you have already approved me Lord. Remind us Lord that it is your power and not our own righteousness or works that sustains us and the work you have begun in us.

But we have this treasure in earthen vessels, that the excellency of power may be of God and not of us.                – 2 Corinthians 5:7


Let us pray:

Holy and omnipotent God, lover of our soul. Bring us back to you, reconcile our motives and hearts back to you, back to the place where you are our influence and our standard. God relieve the pressure and stress of living up to expectations that did not come from you. Help us to differentiate between your standard and their opinion. God you matter, you alone matter. Give us your heart. Glory be to your name Lord, we receive your peace in this moment and declare it for the entire body of Christ!

In Jesus’ majestic and powerful name, amen.

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Desperate for you….

I began with the intention of letting you all know how frustrated I was that God just was not speaking to me. But as I prayed before I started typing – He did.

“Lord I can’t hear you and I hate this feeling because it makes me feel as if I’m… desperate for you?”

All the Holy Spirit had to say was “good”and immediately I got it.

Sometimes we take the presence and voice of God for granted and He withdraws to rekindle our fire and to bring us to a place of desperation and longing.

I had to shut up – To hear Him

I had to seek Him – To Find Him

I had to get desperate – To understand that His desire for me is far greater than mine for Him.

Check out this song I just want to hear you by Deon Kipping, I swear the man is singing my life right now!!!

Sometimes I don’t trust God though I want to. Sometimes I cannot see how in the world where I am can lead to where He told me I would be. Sometimes I have to repent for my unbelief. I get confused, scared and frustrated. I don’t know what to do or how to do it, I love those moments. They remind me just how little I have to do with what God is doing in and through me. Those moments force me to face my humanity and His deity.

All I have encountered, remind me just how much I can conquer through my creator.

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To the other women…

I’m so sorry that I blamed you for the men that cheated.

I’m sorry that I called out your promiscuity rather than my own fear and insecurity.

I’m sorry that I was just another source of pain for you, that I allowed my own hurt to cut you with my words.

I’m sorry that I called you a whore, a slut and any other derogatory term just because I needed someone else to hurt as badly as I did.

I’m sorry that I didn’t acknowledge you were hurting too.

I’m sorry that instead of realizing our similarity, the fact that we both responded to a broken heart wrongly… I called out our differences in an attempt to make myself feel superior.

It didn’t work.

Can I be honest? I’m sorry that at some point,I became you!

Please forgive me for not being brave enough to leave. Forgive me for blaming you for my insecurities. I looked at you and you were just a reminder of what I thought to be my truth… I’m not enough, I never will be.

But can I tell you something?

You are beautiful! You don’t have to settle because of what you wrongly believe about yourself; allow your creator to show you who you really are! Don’t cheapen yourself to be more appealing to those who mean you no good. Don’t devalue what God has deemed priceless! You are worth God’s only begotten son! You’re the only one that doesn’t know your worth!

I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well.
– Psalm 139:14

Step into your truth, I don’t pity you nor do I envy you. I love you, I want you to be healed as my God is healing me; I want you to be set free! I want the last time to be the last time you settle for sloppy seconds, stolen moments and cold shoulders.
God is waiting on your hurt so He can heal you. He’s waiting on you to face the truth; His truth of who you are!

Psalm 147:3 He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.

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99 Problems (Day 99 – 100 Days of Singleness)

I had 99 problems, God only had to fix 1!!! I was seeking God, yet being attacked in every area of my life. I was being criticized and put down by those I loved and respected and it seemed as if everything was going wrong. But God! Being who He is saw all of what I was facing and did not change one thing about my circumstances yet changed my entire life.

I was looking at what was happening to me and He showed me it was happening for me! (Romans 8:28) I found comfort in the word of God, knowing that no matter how bleak it seemed, it was all divinely orchestrated for the greater good. It is the plan of the enemy to keep you so preoccupied with pain that you neglect purpose. But with the love of God, you are able to maintain peace in every situation because all things may crumble but the word of The Lord stands!

So yes, out of my 99 problems… God only fixed one but it was the only one that needed fixing. Me!

Colossians 3:10-12
And have put on the new self, which is being renewed in knowledge after the image of its creator. Here there is not Greek and Jew, circumcised and uncircumcised, barbarian, Scythian, slave, free; but Christ is all, and in all. Put on then, as God’s chosen ones, holy and beloved, compassionate hearts, kindness, humility, meekness, and patience,

I asked God to change the hearts of those that attacked me, He changed my heart toward them and allowed me to love them. My fight wasn’t with them but the spirit that operated in them!
– 12 For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.

I prayed that He would take away the pain of my past, help me to forget it so it wouldn’t hurt anymore. He made me face it, then healed it and allowed me to use it as a testimony to help heal others!
– 18 The Lord is close to the brokenhearted
and saves those who are crushed in spirit. (Psalms 34)

I sought Him and I found Him because I needed Him with all of me, and He filled every void with His love. I cannot brag or boast except of the love of Christ that has begun a work in me and who is faithful to complete it. (Phillipians 1:6) Every situation, every trial, every testing, has developed the gifts of he spirit within me and I count it all joy when I am torn down and my name is spat on because I am in good company. With Christ and His disciples, I endure sufferings and with them I look forward to the prize and reward of following the will of God.

Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing. (‭James‬ ‭1‬:‭2-4‬ NASB)

Every struggle, every trial, every burden was to perfect you and push you pass your threshold. My uncle once told me, no big change ever happens until you pass your threshold and he was right!

Greater is coming!

I had 99 problems and God fixed them all by fixing one, He’s GOD like that! And yes I did mean to put GOD!!!

– Love ya!

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Day 1: Clean Texting Challenge, keep it friendly! (100 days of Singleness)

Okay cut off the love songs, put the ice cream back in the freezer and DO NOT text him! He’s not the one and you know it, he wasn’t even a good one to begin with. Don’t let your loneliness commit you to another moment in a wrong relationship!

For the next 7 days we will aim to rid ourselves of every romantic attachment that God has convicted us about, no you aren’t the one that can help him get saved and no going to church every Sunday does not mean he is close. We are going to get so wrapped up in Christ and in our purpose as believers that God Himself will begin to do the process of elimination for us without all the wasted time and effort.

It’s not okay to keep someone around just to stroke your ego and there is no room for God to work in your heart and mind if it is cluttered with yesterday’s boyfriends and Mr. Maybe.

If you are taking to 100 days of Singleness challenge here are the guidelines:

No kissing

No Sexual Contact of any nature

No cuddling with the opposite sex

No massages/ back rubs

No movie nights at home alone (this puts  all previously mentioned rules are in jeopardy of being broken)

 

The reason I spelled it out is because some of us tend to put ourselves in compromising positions with the mindset that we are strong enough to withstand the temptation but it’s an unnecessary hindrance to us. We are seeking the face of God and using the next 100 days to fully come to a place where we are not only content as singles but we are completely healed of all past hurt. Only through the spirit of God can we do this.

Today’s challenge:

Clean texting – baby, babe, honey, sweety, sugar, love, bae, hun are all off limits – anything pertaining to being romantically involved with anyone God has not given His okay on!

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Aim:

To establish clear boundaries of friendship, are you down for the challenge?

To participate, simply use the hashtags:

#SOS (Stories of Singleness) to share your stories and experiences or #100DOS (100 Days Of Singleness) to show your support and/or participation

Twitter: @ProdigalRoyalty Link:  https://twitter.com/Prodigalroyalty

Instagram: Prodigalprincess_ Link:  http://instagram.com/prodigalprincess_

Facebook: Keisha McKenzie Link: https://www.facebook.com/GizmoBorn2shine

I have a terrible habit of being a bit more flirtatious than I ought to, so I am more than happy to take this challenge today with you ladies that agree to stand with me and be set apart. I am told I flirt without even knowing it so maybe, just maybe clean texting can help that a bit. I have to begin to release some people that I know will only hinder my progress spiritually, and yes it does get hard but God would not lead me to do something I cannot handle and as long as He is our strength, we can and will complete our 100 days of singleness being stronger, better and wiser than we are beginning it. I love you all, I’ll be keeping you all in prayer!

Be sure to like, comment and share so we can get as many of our sisters involved as we can… any brothers that wanna join are welcomed!

Live a little, love a lot, be a blessing!

– Keisha