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Pt. 2 – Swallowing the pills of the past… 

It was a bitter pill to swallow, the inward denial and subsequent suppression of my true feelings numbed me completely. I was not only numbed from feeling pain, but from experiencing anything that was deemed unsafe – that included receiving love that in my adolescent estimation; I did not deserve. 

After there was nowhere to hide that I was self medicating the pain, life would soon hand me an even bigger pill to swallow – one that lent a bitter backstory of its own. This pill would be equipped with a villian that was simultaneously a savior in my eyes; and a hero that for years – had been the villian of my imagination. 

Pills and potions, the opened up a door I soon learned; would leave me addicted to the high of a soul made numb for years to come.

You’ll see what happens next in part 3…. 

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Break every chain!!!!!

When I lost my grandmother, just about our entire immediate family was at her home and Break every chain was playing on repeat. I couldn’t stand to hear the song for the following few months, it would bring unbearable grief. 

Here it was, a song that was meant to bring freedom and deliverance did the exact opposite for me because of what it was associated with.

When we hear a song, go somewhere or even meet a new person we can only view them through the jaded scope of our past experiences. I’m greatly aware now of the need to constantly  cleanse our minds of negative associations and viewpoints stemming mind from unresolved issues. We must resolve our issues! 

We have to learn to face the truth of how we feel and to overcome it by the power God has given us to speak His word and speak change into reality. Don’t let a negative memory rob you of a positive or even God-ordained experience! 

Let’s pray:

God, gracious and everlasting Father! I ask that today you enter into my heart and cause all bitterness and malice to be uprooted. Every sign of unforgiveness or brokenness I turn over to you right now. Transform my heart and give me a heart like yours. Help me to see the world through your eyes. I’m no longer broken, no longer hurting but I am whole and healed in Jesus’ mighty name!