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Life and death…

The beauty of death is silence

Every version of her, now deceased eulogizes the remnant that remains

The beauty of death is silence

The slow fading of a heartbeat, slower, softer, weaker, gone.

The beauty of death is silence.

For when we have died, crucifying the past and resurrecting the truth of who we are – life begins.

Wanting, hoping, stronger, faster.

The beauty of life is sound, to hear and be heard. To love and be loved. To understand and be understood.

Death is for those who are done. She was.

I’m not.

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You don’t have to pretend life doesn’t hurt…

I read these words on page 32 of “Dear Mary” written by Sarah Jakes and I closed the book.No, there’s no fancy wordplay, no great deep meaning behind it. The transparency and simplicity of that statement, brought me to a place I had been before and desperately needed to tap into once again.

Sometimes life sucks.

Some days are bad, others are good, and we even have a few extraordinary ones but we cannot continue to pretend that the bad ones do not exist.

Heartache, hurt, lack and worry all plague us at some point. I am in no way condoning sulking – it’s just really annoying. What I am an advocate of is C.L.E.A.R. Take time to (CLEAR) and process. Here’s what it means:

Commit to understanding the root of what you’re feeling.

Learn yourself in a new way by exploring your reactions and feelings toward certain situations.

Earn the right in your own mind to be as forgiving to yourself as you are to others.

Assess the situation in prayer by committing your now clear feelings to Him.

Release every negative emotion and use this instance as a learning experience for future reference. (you may need to write it down)

After you’ve done all you can, which includes serious and specific prayer time.. then rest. We often misunderstand the active benefits in resting in God, it sends the message to Him that we trust Him even when life hurts and doesn’t make sense to us – we know it all works together for our good.

Wherever you are, whatever you are going through just remember you don’t have to pretend life does’t hurt! Take your time to get clear and watch God turn things around just for you! He loves you that much!

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Live a little, Love a lot, Be a blessing! 

ShaKeisha M. 

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Fallen crown… 👑 

Many beautiful love stories and fables begin with “once upon a time” and then there’s some climax and triumph of love that leads to the inevitable and oh so misleading “happily ever after”. 

Forget romance, forget the knight in shining armor. Jesus already saved you, you don’t need a husband or boyfriend for that!

This is the story of the fallen crown: 

One day, a princess was born. The circumstances surrounding her birth are irrelevant. She grew up, good things happened and bad things happened. They changed her so much that she forgot she was a princess. She lost her crown, and with it, the memory of who she truly was. 

The end. 

But it doesn’t have to be. 

The king of kings has written a 66 book decree that establishes you as royalty.

 Your inheritance is everlasting residence in the kingdom of heaven.

 You have been redeemed and a declaration of your rightful position has been declared among the nations by the voice of the prophets. 

Your fallen crown has been retrieved and awaits you in the land flowing with milk and honey. 

He will give a crown of beauty for ashes, a joyous blessing instead of mourning!

“The LORD will hold you in his hand for all to see— a splendid crown in the hand of God.” ‭‭Isaiah‬ ‭62:3‬ 

You are a queen, nothing can or has disqualified you. Your crown just fell, ask  God to open your eyes – you’ll see He’s been holding it this whole time!

  

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Breakdown on the breakdown… 

This weekend, I cried until my eyes burned. I sat in my shower and whimpered like an injured puppy, praying my daughter couldn’t hear me over the water running. 

Something I knew God sent me into, felt like it was falling apart right before my eyes and it hurt! I prayed and prayed and still felt no peace. I didn’t understand why God would allow me to be hurt this way, and I wanted Him to make it stop! I fought back tears that came from the most lonely, desolate chambers of my heart and I was ashamed of them. Every tear made me feel unworthy of the life and ministry God has so graciously led me to lead. 

But who am I? Unworthy! My tears, my breakdown and subsequent prayer of great abandon just reminded me that I’m human! It reminded me that God reigns supreme, above my need to know everything and my desire to feel some level of control. 

I had nothing left but to strain out “God I need you to fix this, I can’t fix this, I need you to show me what to do because I don’t know! I don’t know anything and this hurts!!!” 
I felt a desperation and anguish that beckoned God’s presence. I needed Him and He came, He gave me His peace. He reminded me that He’s in control and I’m in the passenger seat. I’m grateful for the breakdown that put me right where I needed to be – at the feet of Jesus. 

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Here’s why you’re not healed…

You don’t want to be.

Now before you go on explaining how hard it it and how many times you’ve tried, I get it. But I also get that you’ve stopped trying. You’ve grown so attached to your hurt, you believe it to be a part of who you are. It’s not. 

Just because you don’t acknowled your pain, just because you don’t show it the way another person might – doesn’t render it nonexistent!

You’re not healed from that breakup, that let-down, that broken friendship, the neglect from that parent, that abusive relationship. You’re not healed because you’ve decided to bury it, rather than expose it to the light that casts the darkness out of our hearts. Jesus is that light. 

Will you do me a favor and at least admit that your hurting? Admit that you’re holding onto broken memories and relationships because I’m your mind; feeling that pain is so much easier than the pain you feel when you’re alone? Will you admit that you don’t even feel like you deserve healing? 

Admit it to yourself. Pray on it. If you need a listening ear, contact me. I guarantee the only other soul I’ll speak to about it is the Lord, I want to help you move from that broken place. 

Send me a message at crossmyheartministry2014@gmail.com and let’s start moving toward your healing!  

 

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Christian Healing Inspiration Personal Experiences Relationships Spiritual healing

Crazy girlfriends be like…

Don’t be afraid to face your truth and acknowledge that your behavior comes from a place of hurt! 

 

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Christian Inspiration Spiritual healing

Break every chain!!!!!

When I lost my grandmother, just about our entire immediate family was at her home and Break every chain was playing on repeat. I couldn’t stand to hear the song for the following few months, it would bring unbearable grief. 

Here it was, a song that was meant to bring freedom and deliverance did the exact opposite for me because of what it was associated with.

When we hear a song, go somewhere or even meet a new person we can only view them through the jaded scope of our past experiences. I’m greatly aware now of the need to constantly  cleanse our minds of negative associations and viewpoints stemming mind from unresolved issues. We must resolve our issues! 

We have to learn to face the truth of how we feel and to overcome it by the power God has given us to speak His word and speak change into reality. Don’t let a negative memory rob you of a positive or even God-ordained experience! 

Let’s pray:

God, gracious and everlasting Father! I ask that today you enter into my heart and cause all bitterness and malice to be uprooted. Every sign of unforgiveness or brokenness I turn over to you right now. Transform my heart and give me a heart like yours. Help me to see the world through your eyes. I’m no longer broken, no longer hurting but I am whole and healed in Jesus’ mighty name!