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When the lights go out…

It’s nighttime, the kids are in bed; Hubby’s asleep but will probably say he was resting his eyes once he wakes up. You’re all alone, just you and Jesus.

Who are you now?

I ask myself this periodically, to see if I’m still aware of me. Lately, I recognized that I’ve simply been reacting to the world around me for some time. Instead of asking Holy Spirit what He wants me to do with my days, I’ve been fumbling around and taking him for the ride. He’s been a passenger in the relationship He should’ve been piloting.

I ask myself again, in this moment; who are you Keisha?

Are you living up to your life’s mission of changing the world one heart at a time or have you been changed by your circumstances? Have you been a thermostat or a thermometer?

If I’m being honest, I forgot to be who I am. It’s an easy thing to do when the busyness of life sets in and you’re caught up being who they need. It may not be a husband and kids for you, it may be your boss at work, ministry life or even your parents. But… whatever you’re busy doing, make time to be you.

Fulfilling your reason for being has to be your utmost priority. No amount of accomplishment outside of God’s divine purpose will suffice.

When the lights go out, who are you?

Goodnight.

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Frightening fantasy…

My fantasies have taken a frightful turn. They’re not even about me anymore. 

My utmost desire is to witness the healing power of God move. My immense and passionate hope is that the power of God be revealed in its fullness and that I am both a witness and a channel of His glory. 

It’s frightful to think that this miraculous and all powerful God considers a wretch like me in His plans… 

But it’s beautifully frightening, like the thrill of being on a swing set and going just a little higher than you anticipated and feeling the little tingle.

Whatever God has created me to be, that I am for His pleasure. 

Live a little, love a lot, be a blessing! 

– ShaKeisha M – 

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To my lover…

You awaken the depths of my soul and breathe life into my weathered existence.

Your lips press against mine and your words spill out of me. 

Your eyes lineup with mine and you change my vision of the world, of my past, of myself.

You love me so completely and with so much fervor that all my broken pieces only make sense in your presence. My heart aches for he sight of you and my soul cries out for your tender mercies. 

Even when you slay me, my lips will not relent in giving you praise. The fruit of my lips are an offering pleasing to you and this broken, tattered heart of mine is your most prized possession. 

Should another come between you and I? May it never be so.

May I never forget the caress of your forgiveness and the overshadowing of my shortcomings. 

May another never take the king of my heart from His throne, but may my body be presented to you eternally as a sacrifice and living testament of your grace. 

Give me more, love me harder, draw me closer, breathe me in until only your breath remains in me.

Let my lips speak your words.

Let my heart beat with your love.

Let my mind, think your thoughts. 

May I live everyday, with the expectation of my lover. He will never leave me, never forsake me and daily He shares pages from the 66 book love letter that tells me just how completely and unselfishly He loves me.

My beloved is mine and I am His. 

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Fallen crown… 👑 

Many beautiful love stories and fables begin with “once upon a time” and then there’s some climax and triumph of love that leads to the inevitable and oh so misleading “happily ever after”. 

Forget romance, forget the knight in shining armor. Jesus already saved you, you don’t need a husband or boyfriend for that!

This is the story of the fallen crown: 

One day, a princess was born. The circumstances surrounding her birth are irrelevant. She grew up, good things happened and bad things happened. They changed her so much that she forgot she was a princess. She lost her crown, and with it, the memory of who she truly was. 

The end. 

But it doesn’t have to be. 

The king of kings has written a 66 book decree that establishes you as royalty.

 Your inheritance is everlasting residence in the kingdom of heaven.

 You have been redeemed and a declaration of your rightful position has been declared among the nations by the voice of the prophets. 

Your fallen crown has been retrieved and awaits you in the land flowing with milk and honey. 

He will give a crown of beauty for ashes, a joyous blessing instead of mourning!

“The LORD will hold you in his hand for all to see— a splendid crown in the hand of God.” ‭‭Isaiah‬ ‭62:3‬ 

You are a queen, nothing can or has disqualified you. Your crown just fell, ask  God to open your eyes – you’ll see He’s been holding it this whole time!

  

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Breakdown on the breakdown… 

This weekend, I cried until my eyes burned. I sat in my shower and whimpered like an injured puppy, praying my daughter couldn’t hear me over the water running. 

Something I knew God sent me into, felt like it was falling apart right before my eyes and it hurt! I prayed and prayed and still felt no peace. I didn’t understand why God would allow me to be hurt this way, and I wanted Him to make it stop! I fought back tears that came from the most lonely, desolate chambers of my heart and I was ashamed of them. Every tear made me feel unworthy of the life and ministry God has so graciously led me to lead. 

But who am I? Unworthy! My tears, my breakdown and subsequent prayer of great abandon just reminded me that I’m human! It reminded me that God reigns supreme, above my need to know everything and my desire to feel some level of control. 

I had nothing left but to strain out “God I need you to fix this, I can’t fix this, I need you to show me what to do because I don’t know! I don’t know anything and this hurts!!!” 
I felt a desperation and anguish that beckoned God’s presence. I needed Him and He came, He gave me His peace. He reminded me that He’s in control and I’m in the passenger seat. I’m grateful for the breakdown that put me right where I needed to be – at the feet of Jesus. 

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I can’t take all the pressure…

I’m so afraid to fall. Sometimes I get petrified at the very thought of dropping the ball, of not being what I’m expected to be. After all, I’m responsible for those that look at me as a representation of Christ right? I think Pressure by Jonathan McReynolds hit the nail om the head for me – I’ve been listening all morning.

Lord I need you to relieve the pressure, not just from me but for every person that is earnestly seeking to please you. Help us not to allow the voice of others to dictate who we should be. Help us not to believe the lie that there is just one way to follow you. Help us to be who we are, help us to please you by being us and not a cookie-cutter replica of a good Christian.

I don’t know when it happened, I don’t know how but somehow I lost sight of the fact that it is you alone that I aim to please. Everyday I am constantly reminded of the expectations that I may not always live up to, of the way I should look or act to be accepted. Help me to remember that you have already approved me Lord. Remind us Lord that it is your power and not our own righteousness or works that sustains us and the work you have begun in us.

But we have this treasure in earthen vessels, that the excellency of power may be of God and not of us.                – 2 Corinthians 5:7


Let us pray:

Holy and omnipotent God, lover of our soul. Bring us back to you, reconcile our motives and hearts back to you, back to the place where you are our influence and our standard. God relieve the pressure and stress of living up to expectations that did not come from you. Help us to differentiate between your standard and their opinion. God you matter, you alone matter. Give us your heart. Glory be to your name Lord, we receive your peace in this moment and declare it for the entire body of Christ!

In Jesus’ majestic and powerful name, amen.

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Break every chain!!!!!

When I lost my grandmother, just about our entire immediate family was at her home and Break every chain was playing on repeat. I couldn’t stand to hear the song for the following few months, it would bring unbearable grief. 

Here it was, a song that was meant to bring freedom and deliverance did the exact opposite for me because of what it was associated with.

When we hear a song, go somewhere or even meet a new person we can only view them through the jaded scope of our past experiences. I’m greatly aware now of the need to constantly  cleanse our minds of negative associations and viewpoints stemming mind from unresolved issues. We must resolve our issues! 

We have to learn to face the truth of how we feel and to overcome it by the power God has given us to speak His word and speak change into reality. Don’t let a negative memory rob you of a positive or even God-ordained experience! 

Let’s pray:

God, gracious and everlasting Father! I ask that today you enter into my heart and cause all bitterness and malice to be uprooted. Every sign of unforgiveness or brokenness I turn over to you right now. Transform my heart and give me a heart like yours. Help me to see the world through your eyes. I’m no longer broken, no longer hurting but I am whole and healed in Jesus’ mighty name! 

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Desperate for you….

I began with the intention of letting you all know how frustrated I was that God just was not speaking to me. But as I prayed before I started typing – He did.

“Lord I can’t hear you and I hate this feeling because it makes me feel as if I’m… desperate for you?”

All the Holy Spirit had to say was “good”and immediately I got it.

Sometimes we take the presence and voice of God for granted and He withdraws to rekindle our fire and to bring us to a place of desperation and longing.

I had to shut up – To hear Him

I had to seek Him – To Find Him

I had to get desperate – To understand that His desire for me is far greater than mine for Him.

Check out this song I just want to hear you by Deon Kipping, I swear the man is singing my life right now!!!

Sometimes I don’t trust God though I want to. Sometimes I cannot see how in the world where I am can lead to where He told me I would be. Sometimes I have to repent for my unbelief. I get confused, scared and frustrated. I don’t know what to do or how to do it, I love those moments. They remind me just how little I have to do with what God is doing in and through me. Those moments force me to face my humanity and His deity.

All I have encountered, remind me just how much I can conquer through my creator.

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99 Problems (Day 99 – 100 Days of Singleness)

I had 99 problems, God only had to fix 1!!! I was seeking God, yet being attacked in every area of my life. I was being criticized and put down by those I loved and respected and it seemed as if everything was going wrong. But God! Being who He is saw all of what I was facing and did not change one thing about my circumstances yet changed my entire life.

I was looking at what was happening to me and He showed me it was happening for me! (Romans 8:28) I found comfort in the word of God, knowing that no matter how bleak it seemed, it was all divinely orchestrated for the greater good. It is the plan of the enemy to keep you so preoccupied with pain that you neglect purpose. But with the love of God, you are able to maintain peace in every situation because all things may crumble but the word of The Lord stands!

So yes, out of my 99 problems… God only fixed one but it was the only one that needed fixing. Me!

Colossians 3:10-12
And have put on the new self, which is being renewed in knowledge after the image of its creator. Here there is not Greek and Jew, circumcised and uncircumcised, barbarian, Scythian, slave, free; but Christ is all, and in all. Put on then, as God’s chosen ones, holy and beloved, compassionate hearts, kindness, humility, meekness, and patience,

I asked God to change the hearts of those that attacked me, He changed my heart toward them and allowed me to love them. My fight wasn’t with them but the spirit that operated in them!
– 12 For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.

I prayed that He would take away the pain of my past, help me to forget it so it wouldn’t hurt anymore. He made me face it, then healed it and allowed me to use it as a testimony to help heal others!
– 18 The Lord is close to the brokenhearted
and saves those who are crushed in spirit. (Psalms 34)

I sought Him and I found Him because I needed Him with all of me, and He filled every void with His love. I cannot brag or boast except of the love of Christ that has begun a work in me and who is faithful to complete it. (Phillipians 1:6) Every situation, every trial, every testing, has developed the gifts of he spirit within me and I count it all joy when I am torn down and my name is spat on because I am in good company. With Christ and His disciples, I endure sufferings and with them I look forward to the prize and reward of following the will of God.

Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing. (‭James‬ ‭1‬:‭2-4‬ NASB)

Every struggle, every trial, every burden was to perfect you and push you pass your threshold. My uncle once told me, no big change ever happens until you pass your threshold and he was right!

Greater is coming!

I had 99 problems and God fixed them all by fixing one, He’s GOD like that! And yes I did mean to put GOD!!!

– Love ya!

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A heart like yours! (Day 72 – 100 Days of Singleness)

Behold, I was brought forth in iniquity, And in sin my mother conceived me. (‭Psalms‬ ‭51‬:‭5‬ NASB)

Being born again, means a rebirthing from our old sinful nature into a glorious and majestic being of love. We cannot serve Christ until we learn to love like Him.

Hide Your face from my sins And blot out all my iniquities. Create in me a clean heart, O God, And renew a steadfast spirit within me. (‭Psalms‬ ‭51‬:‭5, 9-10‬ NASB)

God will not withhold anything we request, if we seek God for a clean heart we will undoubtedly receive it. We need the heart of Christ, a heart that never wavers in it’s pursuit to love.

Sometimes I talk to God because I need to, I just need Him. Sometimes we won’t get the words right, we won’t know what to say – just talk. God doesn’t care how eloquent you are. He just wants to hear from you!

Tonight we pray, for a heart like God’s. One like Christ, one that is pure and full of love.

Dear God,
Gracious and everlasting Holy and one true God, I cry out to you. From the depths of my heart I ask for a heart like yours. Give me a heart that is willing to sacrifice like Abraham did. Give me a heart that is obedient and trusts you above all else like Moses did. May I take on a heart like Job, that believes in you through the testing and though all my possessions and my own family and body are in conflict against me. Give me a heart of repentance and praise. Give me a heart like yours and a hunger and thirst for your presence. You are the God who always was and always will be, the God that created me in His image of love and I ask now that you perfect your love in me. In Jesus name, amen.

Love is patient, love is kind and is not jealous; love does not brag and is not arrogant, does not act unbecomingly; it does not seek its own, is not provoked, does not take into account a wrong suffered, does not rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. (‭1 Corinthians‬ ‭13‬:‭4-7‬ NASB)

May we live like you, love like you, forever.

Signed,
Your loving daughter
– Shakeisha M.